The song says ....

I want home. That feeling that you are loved, not just comfortable to stay with. I deserve love. The kind that thinks about you when you aren't there. During the pandemic in my groups I witnessed that, and I realized how desperately lonely my life was. Being on my own now, the lonliness is still loudly present, and sometimes I struggle through those feelings of being so lonely that I wonder what the point is. Maybe that is the point. Maybe this life is just about seeing how much sadness a human can endure. 

I don't know that answer, but I do know that asking for what I wanted did burn my life down. Everything now is about punishing me for wanting that love, for asking for love. It was the spark of it, speaking to my dreams, that still comes to my dreams. 

I know that one day I will be loved in the way I deserve. Just maybe not in this lifetime. Maybe when I wake in the next lifetime, love will greet me?