So Many Places Alone

By Barbara Christensen - 1:40 PM


So Many Places Alone

As I navigate the future, there are so many places where I feel the energy of "alone". 

What is being alone?

  • Having no one else present

  • On one's own

  • Something that is confined to being just mine

No one can walk this path, but me. I am confined to it, because it is my road, and there is no way out unless I follow my past life. And having no one present to walk with me, I have to make all of the decisions. Yet, along the way, others connect at intersections, and some of our decisions get taken away from us. That is the struggle. Being out of the world, while being interactive within the world. The energy of aloneness, and yet not being alone. 

May Sarton wrote, “Loneliness is the poverty of self; solitude is richness of self.” How do we open to the abundance of self, it is letting go of the loneliness that is impacted on us by a society that doesn't see us. It is work that has to happen from within those dark spaces ... all alone. 

In Chapter Five of my new book, The Awakened Heart, I talk about the  "Guardian Daemon" in my  natal chart, Neptune. Neptune is our highest heart chakra planet. This entity, if you are given one, is given a mission from the Divine to help you fulfill your life's purpose. My palmistry speaks of the exact same life purpose. I came her as a soul purpose to be deeply in the heart space with the world around me. Life, instead, placed me at a state where I feel and choose to be alone. My life's purpose is to awaken to that heart space, and finally trust to let someone in again. I reminds me of the poem, Alone, by Edgar Allan Poe (one of my daughter's favorite poets).

My Life Purpose is the School of Love, but it is also known as the Butterfly. On a soul level I have a total dedication to emotional growth. Butterflies come with a talent, but the lesson is to gain Love and Closeness without giving up the talent. The Butterfly finds themselves both pushed and pulled away from Love and Closeness which can be sort of like war and peace. If the push-pull creates experiences that the Butterfly pays attention to, it will bring them directly into their soul path. If they do not, they will fly from flower to flower without purpose.

Butterfly with the Archetypal life lesson of Self Worth, Intimacy Issues + Being Worthy of Love.

My life lessons is when I feel guilty, or unloved / unworthy; to not pull away from whatever intimacy has been created. Working on communication and not abandoning love, nor your lover, will bring in more of that emotional closeness I desire. The guilt, which is tied into "family guilt" and responsibility, requires the ability to continue to work with my talents, rather than giving myself up for the greater good. This soul requires emotional self-worth, and getting over family paranoia in order to find what makes me happy.

Have a Palmistry Session created for you today.



From childhood’s hour I have not been

As others were—I have not seen

As others saw—I could not bring

My passions from a common spring—

From the same source I have not taken

My sorrow—I could not awaken

My heart to joy at the same tone—

And all I lov’d—I lov’d alone—

Then—in my childhood—in the dawn

Of a most stormy life—was drawn

From ev’ry depth of good and ill

The mystery which binds me still—

From the torrent, or the fountain—

From the red cliff of the mountain—

From the sun that ’round me roll’d

In its autumn tint of gold—

From the lightning in the sky

As it pass’d me flying by—

From the thunder, and the storm—

And the cloud that took the form

(When the rest of Heaven was blue)

Of a demon in my view—

Source: American Poetry: The Nineteenth Century (1993)

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