In my dream last night I was in a sort of higher realm concentration camp. I was about to be killed. Before they took me into this building I threw out a penny and a quarter that I had, as it would have my DNA on it and when found it could be connected back to myself. In Judaism, the number 26 (25 + 1) is significant because it is the numerical value of the Hebrew name for God, YHWH (Yahweh) It also can be broken down further to it's parts of All is Love, or numerologically as 8. Together 26 mathematically is 26 or 13 and 13, or 4 and 4, or 8. The value of the Hebrew letter ח, chet, is eight. חית, Chet is also the Hebrew word for fence. The very first letter of the Hebrew Alphabet can be deconstructed to two 10s and a 6. Always seemingly coming back to the fence. 

They made me kneel and wanted me to confess. I just kept repeating, "Thank You God, amen." This made them very angry. The Gematria calculator calculates this phrase as number 946. The Hebrew number 946 means "intelligence" and is a Masculine energy (mankind). Further breaking it down can be 19, 10, and then 1. Back to that unconditional love of the first letter. Also, Nineteen is tsha esre (f) tish’a asar (m) 10+9=19, meanings of ten and nine. Two halves of the divine energy. 

Divine order, judgment, truth revealed or concealed - it is that intelligence we seek. Nineteen is the 8th prime number, which also indicates links back to that number 8. 

Grace Torah says: 

Nineteenth Hebrew Letter: Koof Numerical value of one hundred. Pictographic meaning sun on the horizon, time, imitation (of God or enemy), circle.

The Sun in the Shamanic practice is the Father and the East, new beginnings of the medicine wheel.

Chavah or Eve has a Gematria value of 19. But again 10 is considered feminine and 9 is considered masculine. But Eve births all. 

The Jewish calendar follows a 19 year (Metonic) Cycle. 19 solar years are equivalent to 235 lunar months, which 235 becomes 10, and 19 becomes.10, and they all become 1. 

Never let this world or Earth School make you forget that you are a part of a wholeness that exists as everything. You are divine love and always in creation with that love if you choose.

God, the Universe, Spirit, energy .. whatever you wish to call it is the fence in some sense. If we believe it protects our essence and nothing, not even death can take away that connection to unconditional love and light. It is also what can bind us if we refuse to be who we are. We create our own prisons sometimes by allowing others to imprison us starting with our mind. 

The struggles that I have been through over the past two years are nothing spectacular as everyone has a war they are or have fought. If I forget that I am light and love, I am not living and in such have let the mind bring about death. 

I am reminded again of the purple orb I saw in my room the other night. Orbs are angelic light to remind us that our body is just a vehicle of this life. Purple can be a reminder of mercy and transformation, The 2003 abstract painting Purple Angel by Elliot R. Wolfson may express a complementary pattern of doubling, similar to twilight, which is a time when day and night meet. In the painting, the absent angel's presence is conveyed through a play of doubled light. I am reminded of when my Upper World teacher taught me that the difference between sunrise and sunset is only perception. 

Also, purple has many connections to Archangel Zadkiel (or Zachariel). as the angel that transcended as purple frequencies. Zachariel has come to me before in terms of this Hebrew Alphabet as linked above. As I came out of the shamanic journey on the day I saw the purple orb. In that journey the drum carried me into this space of light. It was so bright. It was like waves of this beautiful light flowing away from the most intense angelic flame I had ever experienced. Metatron. 

Slowly, I came to be engulfed by the light, and as I stood there with this presence that had no words to describe, I went blank. As I came back at the almost exact ending of the drums, Metatron said, "h e a t." 

In the Torah, heat is the living essence of us, allowing this spiritual freedom to heat us up. Sadly and ironically that is a remembering of the camps, and to remind all that these were people of God. 

I was also brought to the fact, as a side note, that heat in the Gematria is equal numerologically to LSD. Was I, in fact, in the natural state of DMT? Yes. Drumming and rattle work will hit the same area of our brain, so I was in a mystical esoteric space of lessons with the divine voice of HaShem. God is often referred to as Hashem, a creative way of not saying God's name.

Perhaps the greatest work we can do is to love each other, and transform the lifetime through acts of mercy whenever we can. Especially, this is needed in terms of loving ourselves. In terms of 1, the unconditional love, it is something no one can ever take from you - except yourself. 

Barbara xx