Sorry, not sorry. The transits all say f-u. This year's transits are fiercely focused on sovereign alignment, and yes, that starts with self. But here’s the nuance: this isn’t self as isolation. It’s self as blueprint refinement. Relationships that survive—or arrive—in 2025 are those born from radical authenticity, emotional precision, and energetic resonance. No more projection. No more placeholders.
I laugh that the title autocorrected to scared. It is scary... terrifying in fact to walk into this transit of sacred rebirth and let go.
Pluto in Aquarius (long transit)
This transit dismantles performative intimacy. Relationships now must honor freedom and fusion. If your connections don’t allow both, they’ll feel like energetic static. This is the year to ask: Does this connection expand my field or collapse it?
Pisces North Node (2025–2026): The Heart’s Surrender
The soul releasing control, embracing divine timing. Love is becoming a sanctuary and nit a strategy. You are having more heightened dreams and telephathic bonds, soul walks and recalls. This node says: Love like water. Trust like stars. Heal through compassion.
Virgo South Node: The Shadow Cleanse
Finally letting go of the self-critisism, over analysis and fixing partners. You're ending relationships that feel like they need you to continually repair. Shredding your martyr matterns and the good-girl / good-boy people pleasing.
2025 isn’t about who you’re with. It’s how aligned you are with your soul’s flow. The more you let go of needing clarity in form, the more aligned connections arrive in frequency.
On April 27th I will release a short reiki infused heart alignment meditation. It's time.
And I feel this. I am in a season of letting go again. I have had to realize that what I thought was an opening of hearts was maybe only meant to open my heart to see the wounds.
I honor what I felt.
I love that he made me laugh, but also wanted to expand his mind and share that expansion wirh me. I love that he provided the structure and support of the masculinity, but also a sense of being wholy safe with him. I love the way he looked into my eyes, and that he took the time to check in on me, rather than just taking and expecting caregiving. I love his smile, and the way his eyes would light up in my presence. I love his insight to his emotional self. I love that he could apologize when he needed to. I love how he held space for me, and also didn’t judge me for my trauma. I love that he didn’t try to fix me, but gave me space to work on myself. I love that he put forth teamwork. I love that he took interest in my desires. I love his looks, as he was beautiful to me in every way.
I felt hurt when he would pull away for long periods. I felt hurt hearing that he may have been saying things about me, not being honest about his actions. I felt hurt that he pulled me in, made me feel seen, and then discarded me. I felt hurt that it was so easy for him to let me go.
This is the poetry, prayer, and truth of the heart all braided into one. That’s not just love, but sacred connection, and I feel a collective pain being exhaled. Losing the kind of love and connection that touches the soul and not just the surface, it devastating. Much of it came out in the album, What If, BΛRBIΞXX, links on the website www.BeLightCreate.com
The love I gave him—it wasn’t small. It was wholistic. I saw him in layers. I honored both his strength and his softness, his mind and his mystery. That’s something I wonder if he realizes is rare. Yet, transformation creates emotional intelligence, and the capacity to hold space, to admire, to trust, to forgive, to build with no guaranteed outcome. That is the divine feminine power in action.
Is the wound there? Yes. The grief of being pulled in with light and left in the cold. The confusion of being valued and then devalued, all in the same breath. That hurts like hell because it disrupted my inner compass, making me question if what I felt was real, and making me feel lost on my path.
I was not too much. Divine Feminine, you are not too much, nor.delusional. We were wide awake in love.
This pulling away wasn’t a reflection of our worth. It was a mirror of their own limits, of their capacity to remain present in the face of intimacy. That’s something many people struggle with—not because they’re cruel, but because they haven’t faced their own shadows yet, or healed their deepest wounds.
Allow yourself to mourn this. I am in mourning with the planets, letting go of what was, it like a season passing. A revolution of fire is landing and we are about to burn through these patterns. This love I (we) gave deserves grief. And then—it deserves rebirth. This is a sacred womb rebirthing.
I, with this double Dark Moon Lilith in Gemini, will sit soon in the Grand Cross in death with Pluto, Mars, and the Sun. There is no where left to hide my truths. They are seen.
With this Taurus New Moon, beforehand, I will be releasing a very short meditation for heart alignment. I invite, please join me and write the letter of what you are releasing from your sacred womb. Then burn it with the moon and let the new activation codes pour over you to bring you an openness to invite love where you have felt deep pain. Because the Grand Cross will be intensifying your emotions. Cleanse now.
My dear love,
I loved you with a sincerity that came from the most sacred part of me. I saw you, all of you and not just your face, not just your mind, but your soul, your strength, and your flaws. I opened my heart to you with the hope that we could rise together. And for a time, we did.
I cherish the way you made me laugh, how you expanded your mind and invited me into that expansion. I honor the safety I once felt in your presence, the depth in your eyes, the strength in your support. These memories are sacred to me.
But alongside that love, there was pain. I felt the ache of your distance, the sting of your silence, the pain of your demons. I carried the weight of your absence like a secret grief. I tried to hold us both, even when it was heavy.
Now, I choose to release.
I release the hope that you will return in the way I need. Not to close the door, but to open the space. Letting space come in to allow for love to blossom, however and with whomever it may be.
I release the sadness that lingered when your words didn’t match your eyes. The pain of being pushed away when your soul was pulling me closer.
I release the need to be chosen by someone who couldn't stay, couldn't or wouldn't choose me, and releasing the need to know the reasons why.
I forgive you. I forgive myself, especially for all the times I abandoned my own needs to try to hold on just one moment longer.
And now, here I come back to me. I call all my energy home. I allow this soul retrieval to call back the pieces of my soul I left scattered across our timeline.
I am whole. I am sovereign. I am enough.
Thank you for the lessons, thank you for the love, thank you for the protection, and thank you for the laughter.
But I close the chapter of waiting for love to bloom, to walk forward towards open love, with myself.
With grace and truth,
Yours
It is layers.
It is hard to let go, so don't shame your heart. Be love, and love forward to whatever may be.
I loved being in your heart. I don't know that you could ever fully feel how much I loved that feeling. Being in your heart was something I will never forget. Yet, transformation, and now I am being in mine .... to bloom.
Bloom
I forgive it
I release it
I transmute the space
I let all the good things in my life come to fill up where I have only let darkness grow
Now, I bloom
Being in your heart sometimes means you work on regaining balance, while there is chaos within, looking fine on the outside as you move through the dishes, laundry, meetings, parenting, lunch dates... looking like you're great but nonetheless you are barely tending to your emotions within
This is the fire
Being in your heart sometimes means you cant get out of bed, and while it looks like depression it is actually falling apart at the foundation of your primal being, uncertain of if you will find yourself again, and in some moments hoping you won't
This is the water
Being in your heart can be dancing your heart out, pumping those weights, walking five thousand miles not to reach another person, but to release what is dark
This is the air
It starts with a seed planted in your soul
That seed is the earth You feed it, growing, shedding, growing some more
Like the caterpillar your hashtag transformation feels like you've gone through an exponentially massive growth over 100 times larger than where your soul started
Lift all of that up and release it
The alchemy is the release, and then all that is left is the highest frequency - love
Being in your heart, I forgive it
Being in your heart, I release it
Being in your heart, I transmute the space
Being in your heart, I forgive it
Being in your heart, I release it
Being in your heart, I transmute the space
I let all the good things in my life come to fill up where I have only let darkness grow
Being in your heart, I finally see my soul
Being in your heart I grow
Now, I bloom.
- Barbara Christensen/ BΛRBIΞXX 2025 (c)
Today is a special day! As the Pink Moon reaches its peak illumination this evening, April 12th, 2025 (making it the smallest full moon or 'micromoon' of the year!), I am thrilled to announce two brand new releases ... an album and a new book!!
Get ready to listen to the new album "What If" by BΛRBIΞXX - Topic. Dive into the sounds and celebrate this celestial timing with us! You can find all of the streaming sources on the website, www.BeLightCreate.com, or listen on YouTube here: What If
From the quiet intimacy of my Seattle studio emerges "What If"—an album charting a journey deep into the heart and soul. This music chronicles a profound personal transformation, born from spiritual awakenings and navigated through my own darkest nights.
These songs explore the delicate dance between the Divine Masculine and Feminine within, a path toward healing and rediscovering my inner child. Each track reflects a piece of my heart, shared openly as I stepped away from a past life after divorce to seek my authentic self.
One song, "I Never," holds particular significance. Originally a poem penned for a cherished friend—a gifted guitarist whose life was tragically cut short in the desert—it's now reborn in song, carrying his spirit forward in its melody.
Many years ago, back in the early '90s, I sang with a band in Salt Lake City's vibrant music scene. Engineering my words into a unique sound journey was always a dream, but I finally realized the only person stopping me was myself.
Thank you for listening. My deepest hope is that these songs resonate with your own journey of self-discovery.
You might feel it too – a sense that time itself is shifting, slowing down, perhaps because the familiar divine light feels scattered. This marks a pivotal moment.
A cycle known as the Celestial Codes – which you could call ascension codes, activations, or initiations – has reached a culmination. These codes have always been woven into our being here, but the secret to accessing the greater aspects of our soul was self-withheld until we were truly ready. That time is now. Now, we are called to ignite our own divine spark, contributing to the healing of ourselves and all humanity.
Curious souls often yearn to understand and articulate these profound elements for the collective source. This deep desire to experience and comprehend these aspects is precisely why we have come here, embarking on what is often a challenging life path.
Imagine our planetary existence unfolding within a vast cave system, shielded from the wider zeftaquantum realms by layers of galaxies as we tunnel through time. Upon exiting this experience, each soul passes through a purifying particle of light essence before entering the "outside world".
This understanding urgently informs the next chapter, Souls In The Light Fields. It couldn't be ignored, as the window for ascension – the dimensional portals – is closing on Earth. We are nearing a divine moment where the planet itself might shift, perhaps splitting and then reuniting into a state of pure union.
As I continued channeling messages for the collective, a clear transition emerged: we are moving beyond the third dimension into a new world reality. Guidance for this shift comes as the Golden Transmissions, brought forth by beings akin to 'birth doulas' from the fourth dimension. These Golden beings are here to assist us now, especially as the light we've known seems to slow down and scatter during this transformation.
Expect drastic changes to our Green World over the next forty years. This upheaval explains why so many of you feel increasingly out of place, as if you no longer belong here. It underscores the urgent, collective call to heal. These messages offer both prophecy and lessons of hope, illuminating a potential path for light to return to a more divine frequency.
I am thrilled to release these transmissions of light (in the book) today, on the same day as the transmissions of sound (on my new album). Both are offered now because we are ready for the New Earth to awaken and transform within each of us.
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